Sobbing, Chill inside a Metro.

To be around people that likes and values my presence,

And not to be that one mosquito stuck inside their bed net struggling to get out.

The ones that wouldn't let me feel lonely and stranded in their presence.

They are my people.

(I'm scared to name them..what if they change or what if there are no names at all?)

It's terrorising how dependent I am on the people around me. 

But I'm only human, a social animal.

Clever but weak, creative but stupid.

When I talk with certain people, I feel like they suck the energy outta me.

As if I'm running a marathon on a treadmill without airpods.

The ones that are innately incompatible with me.

I get it, no hard feelings.. we don't match, so we left in good terms.

There are ones that held me like I'm a little hummingbird trying to fly, not letting me fall or fly too high.

They were soo kind, they make me wanna be kind to others.

Next, ppl that talk with you only at specific places

Like in a language class.. limited to specific topics, insular to get to know personally.. we're already saturated with human relations we don't desire for an upgrade there.

But I feel like it's good to have ppl that u know u can fight with - like ur sibling or that special guy. 

With them money, pride and status is not applicable. All the excrations and altercations slowly dissolve in a small smile of theirs.

Heyy,

It's been quite a while since I posted a blog, I'm aware..but I'm happy that I kept the streak going for 3 continuous weeks of blogging until I broke it after March 8th.. Apart from my lethargy, I was busy introspecting, conducting events, connecting with people and making immediate plans like booking tickets for a Holi event. So I would like to not regret the lack of writing. But it's high time I reignite the spirit inside me. So here I am. Yaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyy 🩷