Bitter Productivity

You’re reminded not to get stuck in bitterness. Instead, channel your energy into productive, empowering actions. 

- Madame Clairevoyant.

Today was the perfect example of this.

I'll plan something, but something else would happen.

I was feeling a rollercoaster of emotions,

Happiness, satisfaction, bitterness, anger, pity, empathy, self loathing, wanting to k*ll myself (I'm kidding, I don't have the courage) and a lot more.

It was a full spectrum.

It's because of my expectations.

And streamlining them to a few people,

Putting pressure on them too.

So instead of lashing out on them,

I tried to put myself first.

I got myself an ice-cream,

And even more sweets 

but that turned into something vile.

I got a sugar crash and it was horrible.

But then I picked myself up and got some healthy food and meds,

Started working on my discussion panel and prepping for exams

And now here I am

Comfortable on my bed, sipping on some water,

Forgiving myself for my stupidity 

And getting ready to welcome yet another 

"Surprise me" day.

(I should go to gym)