Musings on lemon seeds- 1

Five years ago I was pretty.
But unattractive.

Now, I can turn a serious number of heads
I don't know the magnitude tho
I don't know what about me is pretty
or how beautiful I am
or why I am attractive now
I haven't had anyone observant enough
to tell me that.
On one side I am relieved that 
I haven't been examined that close by anyone 
on the other I'd still like to know..

Do you know the famous saying that goes
"When words tail, flowers speak" ?
The official quote for
Cheap plastic buckets in Kerala.
I had one too..cheap, un aesthetic..but pink.
With disney princess stickers on it's sides
(that's why I bought it)
It did its job so no complaints...

They made me feel that one is attractive 
when they are given flowers.

But when I think about it,
My flower count till date is a dashing three..
Two of them, I forced my friends to get me
And they where annoyed enough 
To get me a single flower 
when I expected a bouquet 
Can't blame them.. they're quite exorbitant.

So I'm letting the ambiguity eat me alive
While I'm still trying to get the turmeric paste 
off of my face 💛


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