The Light.

"When others treat you well,

You feel like they're the greatest gift for you " 

- WLGYT

A full week of stress,

Took me another week to recover.

For the process,

"When life gives you tangerines"

Came into my reels.

A strong sense of catharsis ever since.

I cried my eyes out for my sordid past

That still haunted my days.

The unsaid words, lurking inside me

Making me wanna puke.

Appreciating my people even more.

A deep cleansing of my surroundings,

Harmful inferior auras plucked out.

Yesterday night,

A dm, an unexpected one

She said she miss me so much.

Said everyone at her place in England 

Knows me as her Pretty Bestfriend.( Hehehehehe)

"God I fucking miss you broo

  where are you ahhhh" - ß

My silver glitter pen, she still shine for me.

I cried like an adult yesterday 

Getting into the realisation that

I am so bad at appreciating her.

I guess life has its way of creating flux.

Few years ago, we would meet eachother 

Whenever we came back for vacations.

Now it's just me and Minny in those places,

She's away, far.

But I could call her,

Tell her about my hair that keeps on falling,

My driving test that is on Wednesday,

My aspirations to be famous and rich,

Stupid altercations with Kitty,

And everything that I want to share on me.

But I never did that.

Why?

Lethargy...doubt...fear? 

Of not being considered the same?

But the text that popped into my phone screen 

At 11:31 pm yesterday 

Saved my life along with the pizza dinner.

Look at me, my life now.

A powerful loving mother, A feisty uplifting force of a sister, A handful of souls that I can anchor mine to.

They keep me alive, breathing.